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To Finally Be Free
I am on the precipice,
looking over its edge,
and ready to step off!
I have come to this place
by choice: I have run until
there was no more ground;
I have hidden until there
was no more cover; I have
denied until I faced death.
This is a good place to be
after such a long journey!
It is good to just stand still.
It is good to not be numb.
It is good to be uncomfortable.
It is good to know I can heal.
Although, I wish I didn’t have to:
I would rather already be there;
I just want this to be over!
But the only way past this
is to go through it; the only way to
get out of this is to go all the way in.
And I know that I will get there—
eventually—and that my journey
will truly begin once I do.
It’s just hard knowing how much
it may hurt—and even harder not
knowing how much it will hurt.
Still I am here, looking down,
just wondering what it will be like
to finally be free of this pain.
-Paul Whiting
(a.k.a., A Creative Writer)
"I maybe say too much about how life really is!"
My Writing Notes:
The reason that I wrote this poem can be summed up with the following statement: I tested HIV-positive in November of 2000! And I really felt like a failure, because "I was going to get AIDS and die like all of the other fags." So, I wrote this poem as a way to try and make myself feel better by seeing this "life challenge" as an opportunity to heal!
And this poem was also published on my "Three Dark Horses" blog (please see the hyperlink below for the blog) as part of my new "The Oneness Of God" spiritual practice, since I feel that the message in this poem applies to the message I am trying to convey through "The Oneness Of God!"
Plus, this poem was formerly published on my "Small All White in the Forest" blog but, unfortunately, I accidentally deleted this poem on my "Small All White in the Forest" blog while I was doing some editing on that blog.
So, this new "Paul Whiting — A Creative Writer" blog has been an opportunity to recreate the "Absolutely Positive, Part 3 — To Finally Be Free" post as it was originally published on my "Small All White in the Forest" blog.
This poem was written in Portland, Oregon.
-Paulee
https://threedarkhorses.blogspot.com
This "Paul Whiting — A Creative Writer" Post No. 074 was edited on May 3rd, 2024.
"Poetry is using the fewest words possible in order to describe all that is possible to describe." –Paul Whiting [June 1st, 2022]
